The reason I am NOT leaving Nostalrius
Posted: Wed Jul 22, 2015 7:46 pm
The real reason I play Nostalirus still, despite my guild leaving the server.
I understand this may get locked or deleted, and I might get flamed, but I have to get it off my chest.
Let me explain a bit first, I have played WoW since I was 6, I'm turning 17 in 15 days, my uncle first got my family into WoW, back when I was 6, in Vanilla. Nowadays he still plays on Nostalrius and so do I but it is more of a log on and then do Molten Core, then log off.
See my family that played WoW consisted of: my brother, my uncle, my mom, my dad, my aunt, my uncle, 2 cousins, and I. We all played it like a religion, I was 6, but all was good, no body worried about my age, because I was never interfering I just did my own thing.
Skip ahead to why I am posting this, when my brother was really young (13) he got into drugs and alcohol, my mother was also a frequent pill popper, and she is/was an alcoholic. So when we all played those went away and my brother wasn't a disaster, he was our warlock, my mom wasn't a mess, she was our rogue. Later in my life my parents decided to get a divorce, after years of fighting that only stopped when we logged into WoW, or any other game for that matter, but mainly WoW. When this divorce was happening I got quite depressed, my brother was never really around, he was always gone; my sister moved out as soon as she was 18, my house was always loud with yelling. So there I sat, a 10 year old with my mom and dad getting a divorce, my brother a deadbeat, my sister gone. I was alone with nothing but my game, Vanilla WoW.
Now this is where the story kind of changes, that game was my best friend, I would pretend to be sick to play more of it, I would stay in my guilds chat and I made a few really good friends, my mom was remarried to a man she met when she was raiding, and my dad was a bachelor, that's when I went to a summer camp, I came back so happy, but so much had changed in just 7 days, I was removed from my guild for inactivity (which was strange because we had a 1 month waiting period) and my mom would never stop fighting with my then-step dad and my real dad was pretty seriously dating a girl.
With all of this my mind was going 100 mph with thoughts, a big one, 'I am not adapting fast enough, therefore holding down my family, I should just leave'. However I had one friend who never left me, except it cost me a monthly fee that I just couldn't afford sometimes, Vanilla WoW. I played it, doing the same thing over and over, I would start a character level it to 60 and then restart, a part of my mind made me want to keep doing that forever, I was content. With my brother long gone into Idaho (2 states away) and my sister pregnant, my mother now fighting with my then-step dad and my real dad getting engaged, I was really in a tight spot and I didn't like it, most of all I missed my brother, I couldn't stand being without him, every time I would think of him I would only remember this one sequence of my childhood: I had a nightmare, he brought me onto his bunk, we sat under the covers with a book and flashlight and wrote down games in the book, very detailed games we would act out with the neighbor kids later that week, but with my brother gone, there was no safety, nobody there to help me when i needed it the most.
When TBC came out a lot of my aunts , uncles, and cousins started WoW again, but I fell in this depression, my Vanilla WoW was gone and now I would never play WoW the same way again, I just kept leveling characters, up to 60, then restarting, maxing the server slots then deleting the characters to make new ones because I didn't want to leave Vanilla.
In all of this depression a lot of shit happened, I reached high school, my mom got divorced, so we lived with my grand parents, my dad got married, my brother's fiance cheated on him so he was an even more unstable drunk, and my sister's life was on track. However I fell more and more into this hole that was unfillable. All I did all day was go to school come home and instantly play fake Vanilla WoW with myself, and occasionally get on Skype with my cousin and his friend.
I've gotten pretty much through high school now (this year a senior) and then I found Nostalrius, the things that kept this hole in my life sealed have been games, mainly fake Vanila WoW, and now with Nostalrius I can play the real Vanilla WoW.
But the real reason I was wanting to post this, and why I cried on my drive home from work today was so that I can say this; I play Nostalrius hardly to try new Vanilla content and play the promised raids, but because every time I login to Nostalrius and press that 'Enter World' button and hear that noise that everyone knows, I feel like I've walked through the front door to my home, and that everything will be alright as long as I am on Nostalrius. I play my characters and feel like my family is there, even if I'm not in a group and solo running around in Orgrimmar talking to the NPC's I've conversated with 100 times, I still feel like my family is right there next to me, even though I'm a few of many that still plays Nostalrius, now that my GRIZZLY guild is gone, I know that my mom, Ladymist, my dad, Srguy, my brother, Xantis, my uncle, Zorlos, my other uncle, Gillroman, my cousin, Lavrek, my other cousin, Austicus, and I, Alrek all are in this REAL Vanilla WoW experience whether we are or are not. I play this game not because of the server first molten cores or grizzly cult but because MY family is still in Vanilla WoW and Nostalrius' image of it.
tl;dr, Shitty life, started good got worse, played vanilla thru it all, only reason I am still here is because Nostalrius proivded me to hear that sound of Entering the world so that I feel at home.
Thank you Daemon, Viper and all the Nostalirus staff for not only making this REAL vanilla server so great, but also being able to make it last so long, keep it up, despite all of the negative things.
I understand this may get locked or deleted, and I might get flamed, but I have to get it off my chest.
Let me explain a bit first, I have played WoW since I was 6, I'm turning 17 in 15 days, my uncle first got my family into WoW, back when I was 6, in Vanilla. Nowadays he still plays on Nostalrius and so do I but it is more of a log on and then do Molten Core, then log off.
See my family that played WoW consisted of: my brother, my uncle, my mom, my dad, my aunt, my uncle, 2 cousins, and I. We all played it like a religion, I was 6, but all was good, no body worried about my age, because I was never interfering I just did my own thing.
Skip ahead to why I am posting this, when my brother was really young (13) he got into drugs and alcohol, my mother was also a frequent pill popper, and she is/was an alcoholic. So when we all played those went away and my brother wasn't a disaster, he was our warlock, my mom wasn't a mess, she was our rogue. Later in my life my parents decided to get a divorce, after years of fighting that only stopped when we logged into WoW, or any other game for that matter, but mainly WoW. When this divorce was happening I got quite depressed, my brother was never really around, he was always gone; my sister moved out as soon as she was 18, my house was always loud with yelling. So there I sat, a 10 year old with my mom and dad getting a divorce, my brother a deadbeat, my sister gone. I was alone with nothing but my game, Vanilla WoW.
Now this is where the story kind of changes, that game was my best friend, I would pretend to be sick to play more of it, I would stay in my guilds chat and I made a few really good friends, my mom was remarried to a man she met when she was raiding, and my dad was a bachelor, that's when I went to a summer camp, I came back so happy, but so much had changed in just 7 days, I was removed from my guild for inactivity (which was strange because we had a 1 month waiting period) and my mom would never stop fighting with my then-step dad and my real dad was pretty seriously dating a girl.
With all of this my mind was going 100 mph with thoughts, a big one, 'I am not adapting fast enough, therefore holding down my family, I should just leave'. However I had one friend who never left me, except it cost me a monthly fee that I just couldn't afford sometimes, Vanilla WoW. I played it, doing the same thing over and over, I would start a character level it to 60 and then restart, a part of my mind made me want to keep doing that forever, I was content. With my brother long gone into Idaho (2 states away) and my sister pregnant, my mother now fighting with my then-step dad and my real dad getting engaged, I was really in a tight spot and I didn't like it, most of all I missed my brother, I couldn't stand being without him, every time I would think of him I would only remember this one sequence of my childhood: I had a nightmare, he brought me onto his bunk, we sat under the covers with a book and flashlight and wrote down games in the book, very detailed games we would act out with the neighbor kids later that week, but with my brother gone, there was no safety, nobody there to help me when i needed it the most.
When TBC came out a lot of my aunts , uncles, and cousins started WoW again, but I fell in this depression, my Vanilla WoW was gone and now I would never play WoW the same way again, I just kept leveling characters, up to 60, then restarting, maxing the server slots then deleting the characters to make new ones because I didn't want to leave Vanilla.
In all of this depression a lot of shit happened, I reached high school, my mom got divorced, so we lived with my grand parents, my dad got married, my brother's fiance cheated on him so he was an even more unstable drunk, and my sister's life was on track. However I fell more and more into this hole that was unfillable. All I did all day was go to school come home and instantly play fake Vanilla WoW with myself, and occasionally get on Skype with my cousin and his friend.
I've gotten pretty much through high school now (this year a senior) and then I found Nostalrius, the things that kept this hole in my life sealed have been games, mainly fake Vanila WoW, and now with Nostalrius I can play the real Vanilla WoW.
But the real reason I was wanting to post this, and why I cried on my drive home from work today was so that I can say this; I play Nostalrius hardly to try new Vanilla content and play the promised raids, but because every time I login to Nostalrius and press that 'Enter World' button and hear that noise that everyone knows, I feel like I've walked through the front door to my home, and that everything will be alright as long as I am on Nostalrius. I play my characters and feel like my family is there, even if I'm not in a group and solo running around in Orgrimmar talking to the NPC's I've conversated with 100 times, I still feel like my family is right there next to me, even though I'm a few of many that still plays Nostalrius, now that my GRIZZLY guild is gone, I know that my mom, Ladymist, my dad, Srguy, my brother, Xantis, my uncle, Zorlos, my other uncle, Gillroman, my cousin, Lavrek, my other cousin, Austicus, and I, Alrek all are in this REAL Vanilla WoW experience whether we are or are not. I play this game not because of the server first molten cores or grizzly cult but because MY family is still in Vanilla WoW and Nostalrius' image of it.
tl;dr, Shitty life, started good got worse, played vanilla thru it all, only reason I am still here is because Nostalrius proivded me to hear that sound of Entering the world so that I feel at home.
Thank you Daemon, Viper and all the Nostalirus staff for not only making this REAL vanilla server so great, but also being able to make it last so long, keep it up, despite all of the negative things.